I’ve always questioned God for the evil in the world. I have never understood why he has allowed feelings of jealousy, greed and hatred to become such powerful influences in people’s lives. You see, someone once told me to go and become the best possible version of the person that God created me to be. When I first heard this, I didn’t understand why I had to be told this in the first place. Why aren’t people just good?
In a recent event my partner was attacked after a night out. He was beaten unconscious and taken to the hospital. After I got my head around it all, I just became angry. I was angry with everyone, but I was especially angry with the person who had done it to him. I imagined coming to the situation again and what I would’ve done differently. I probably would’ve reacted in a way I couldn’t see myself reacting before this incident. I wanted to hurt someone.
Fortunately, my partner was lucky and his injuries were not as bad as they might have been. He chose not to let this incident affect him. But a little bit of me still couldn’t get over it. So I went back to questioning God. Why did he let this man do this to someone I love so dearly? It infuriated me.
I had to take a good look in the mirror. I had thought about doing exactly the same thing to him because of my feelings about what he did to me. We as human beings have created this vicious cycle. We sit there judging people for doing what they do without trying to understand why it is they choose to do these things. Then in our own time of sin, we justify it. Evil in the world was never God’s intentions. God wouldn’t be God if he had decided to let us control some of our feelings and not the rest. I don’t think we can ever conquer evil. But we can most certainly recognise it’s there and then choose the good. We must choose to be the best possible people God created us to be. It doesn’t just happen on its own.